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{September 4, 2009}   Goldilocks

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I wrote a blog post recently about my desire to become a writer. I’ve been studying the subject intently over the last few weeks by reading books on writing. Yes, I was reading about it, not doing it.

 The result?  By the end of book two, I was scared witless, had no confidence in my talent whatsoever and thought this mystical craft would be out of my reach forever.  Book two was ‘How NOT to Write a Novel: 200 Mistakes to Avoid at All Costs If You Ever Want to Get Published’ My self-worth as a writer was now directly connected to whether I’d be published or not.

I felt like Goldilocks, the first book was ok but focussed on the method, not the motivation and spirituality of writing. The second book was written in a funny, sarcastic tone – which scared the crap out of me as the ‘fabulous’ ideas I had in my head were massacared in the book as cliché and old. I’d never become a writer at this rate! Until, just like Goldilocks and her porridge, I discovered a book that suited me just right.

I’m half way through Julia Cameron’s book called the Right to Write and am picking up little gems the whole way through. Julia Cameron is my writing fairy godmother, she has a shining, optimistic and down to earth approach. Her supportive words revealed every writing insecurity I had, I didn’t think anyone else had an inner pessimist as loud as mine.  She gave excellent advice and workshop activities on how to overcome these, which acted like a balm to my scared little writers soul.  She sprinkles her fairy dust over you until you emerge, confident (well more confident anyway) in your own ability. 

What was stopping me writing then?  Well all these little obstacles that I’d placed in front of myself.  I wasn’t good enough, I didn’t have enough time, I’d never be published.  The list is quite long so I won’t witter on about it, you get the point.  But Julia blasts all these obstacles, with sound advice written from her own experience.  She doesn’t set aside blocks of time, she takes time as she finds it in her life. Obstacle one overcome. I’m writing this on the tube and will paste it into Little Miss Sunshine later. The other obstacles she helps you to overcome, is writing badly and writing because you enjoy it, not with the intent of being published. Well I felt a weight lift off me when I read that. I had to read it a few times before it really sunk in. What? Write just for the sheer enjoyment of it?  Well I never! 

I have finally started writing, being freed from the burden of needing to be published has helped me relax and find my writing tone of voice. Writing without ego and expectation is a wonderful thing and I’m now excited about my journey, not filled with trepidation and fear.

I am a writer.

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I was scared like you. I did my research as well, and have decided to continue to write my book without thinking about being published or if anyone will want to read it. I am writing for me. There will always be someone who doesn’t like your work, but their voice doesn’t speak for everyone.
I started writing, because it was a wonderful outlet to release my stress and feelings on paper. I always feel better after I write.

Good Luck!



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