My Sunshiny Life

{December 14, 2009}   What Matters Now


Here is a free ebook for you to download and enjoy, put together by Seth Godin, the godfather of all things digital.  It contains interesting thoughts about life and humanity from 70 fascinating people.  Big thoughts and small actions make a difference.  Stop, put your feet up and indulge your mind with uplifting and insightful commentary.  My favourite is Elizabeth Gilbert from Eat Pray Love, I want to be her friend!


{September 4, 2009}   Goldilocks


I wrote a blog post recently about my desire to become a writer. I’ve been studying the subject intently over the last few weeks by reading books on writing. Yes, I was reading about it, not doing it.

 The result?  By the end of book two, I was scared witless, had no confidence in my talent whatsoever and thought this mystical craft would be out of my reach forever.  Book two was ‘How NOT to Write a Novel: 200 Mistakes to Avoid at All Costs If You Ever Want to Get Published’ My self-worth as a writer was now directly connected to whether I’d be published or not.

I felt like Goldilocks, the first book was ok but focussed on the method, not the motivation and spirituality of writing. The second book was written in a funny, sarcastic tone – which scared the crap out of me as the ‘fabulous’ ideas I had in my head were massacared in the book as cliché and old. I’d never become a writer at this rate! Until, just like Goldilocks and her porridge, I discovered a book that suited me just right.

I’m half way through Julia Cameron’s book called the Right to Write and am picking up little gems the whole way through. Julia Cameron is my writing fairy godmother, she has a shining, optimistic and down to earth approach. Her supportive words revealed every writing insecurity I had, I didn’t think anyone else had an inner pessimist as loud as mine.  She gave excellent advice and workshop activities on how to overcome these, which acted like a balm to my scared little writers soul.  She sprinkles her fairy dust over you until you emerge, confident (well more confident anyway) in your own ability. 

What was stopping me writing then?  Well all these little obstacles that I’d placed in front of myself.  I wasn’t good enough, I didn’t have enough time, I’d never be published.  The list is quite long so I won’t witter on about it, you get the point.  But Julia blasts all these obstacles, with sound advice written from her own experience.  She doesn’t set aside blocks of time, she takes time as she finds it in her life. Obstacle one overcome. I’m writing this on the tube and will paste it into Little Miss Sunshine later. The other obstacles she helps you to overcome, is writing badly and writing because you enjoy it, not with the intent of being published. Well I felt a weight lift off me when I read that. I had to read it a few times before it really sunk in. What? Write just for the sheer enjoyment of it?  Well I never! 

I have finally started writing, being freed from the burden of needing to be published has helped me relax and find my writing tone of voice. Writing without ego and expectation is a wonderful thing and I’m now excited about my journey, not filled with trepidation and fear.

I am a writer.

{August 18, 2009}   The Invitation

When did life change?  When did it become all about how old we are, where we live, what we do for a living, how much money we earn, what car we drive, where you went to school, who has the biggest diamond ring, what’s the latest designer bag, is your push chair the best, do your children wear the best labels, are the bonuses coming this year? 

Apparently you can never be too skinny, too rich or have big enough diamonds.  I do think you can be too shallow however.  From now on I’m going to focus on the important stuff.  Do you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing?

Hopes and Dreams

The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love, for your dreams,
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow,
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain,
mine or your own, without moving to hide it
or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own.
if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy
fill you to the tips of your fingers
and toes without cautioning us
to be careful, be realistic,
remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty every day,
and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,”Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live,
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone,
and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what
or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself,
and if you truly like the company
you keep in the empty moments.

© Oriah Mountain Dreamer, from the book The Invitation, published by HarperSanFrancisco, 1999

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